Hazel and Maggy || 13#

Roksana
"I can imagine. No, I'm pretty neat when it comes to the exterior", I said.

{some day i'll stop with innuendos, but today's not that day}

(xD dirty child)

Nix smiled and nodded, "I can see that" She said.

Roksana
"It's probably because the lazy part of me wants to just sit around, but the other part won't let it", I said.

"Laziness is an annoying thing" Nix noticed.

Roksana
"Very. Like a little voice in your head", I said. Well, I had a lot of little voices in my head. Most of them were quiet, but the louder ones were the ones yelling 'what are you waiting for'.

Nix nodded, "And it doesn't stop nagging you" She said.

Roksana
I know what was nagging me right now. Something in me was like a magnet, pulling me to her. And I don't even know where that feeling came from, I mean, I've never done anything like that, I didn't know even what would I do if I would brave up enough. What if it'd be horrible and sloppy? No, I'm definitely not doing that."Yeah, it's quite annoying."

Nix tilted her head slightly at her, slightly confused by this girl, but she smiled anyway. She changed her position again, now trying to think of a subject to speak of.

Roksana
"Oh, why are we so quiet, it's sorta depressing", I said.

Nix shrugged lightly, still staring at Roxanne. All of a sudden, unsure of what happened, Nix leant towards her, but stopped a few centimetres away. Merda. She didn't know what to do, if she moved back it would be awkward, but if she closed the gap she was unsure how Roxanne would react. Not knowing what to do, she did the latter and kissed her.

Roksana
I took a sharp breath, feeling every emotion I knew existed. There was some sort of joy- holy crap somebody kissed me -but there was sadness. Why did she kiss me? Did she feel sorry for me, 'such a pretty girl, never been kissed, I'll kiss her so that she can't tell that to others'? I leaned back, my jaw shivering slightly."I-I have to go." I got out of the house thankful of my short-term memory; I didn't get lost, not even once. I walked home. The day was beautifully sunny, but to me, it was somehow chilly. I liked Nix, I really did, but I couldn't help feeling that she was sorry for me, that I was something she wanted to protect, like a baby animal. I don't want that, I don't want to be somebody's pity lamb. And I felt horrible, horrible because I just left her there. Maybe she really liked me, she didn't think I was weak or anything. Gosh, how do people live with that all the time? When I arrived home, I turned on my phone in vain hope she'll call me, text me or whatever.

Merde! Fille de pute! Nix cursed herself, Why did you do that? Why did she do that? Nix laid back on the bed, placing her arm over her eyes. What should she do? Should she text her? If she did that Roxanne might just think she is freak. She had no idea what came over her. She sighed, and reached for her phone, 'I'm sorry' She texted to Roxanne, then returned to her original position, her eyes closed. Would Roxanne hate her now? She said that in Russia it was forbidden to do that. She had made her do something that her country believed was wrong. Nix liked Roxanne, a lot, and Nix felt that she might have just ruined their whole friendship with a single asinine move. Nix sat up and hugged her knees close, realising about the wedding. What if mother found out? Or even what is her fiancé found out? Roxanne could of been a spy for him, to find out what Nix was like. The more she thought, the more ridiculous Nix' beliefs became.

Roksana
I sighed lightly when I heard my mobile beep.'No, I'm sorry, I chickened out. It's... okay, I guess. I'm okay.'

Nix picked up her phone and looked at the text, then placed it on the bed beside me. She just hoped this hadn't ruined their friendship.

(meep)

{maybe nix comes over to her so they could talk?}

(^^ kkay)
Nix walked to Roxanne's, this time Kiwi padded at her side. She always felt a bit more comfortable if Kiwi was with her. Once Nix reached Roxanne's door she knocked quietly.

Roksana
I raised my head lightly. I had curled up on the sofa, covering myself with my bed blanket."Yes?"

Nix pushed the door open, "Hello" She said, slightly timidly.

Roksana
"Oh, um, hi", I mumbled flushing a bit."Come in."

Nix closed the door behind her and Kiwi, looking over to Roxanne.

Roksana
I patted the spot on the sofa."We're quiet again."

Nix sat down next to her and nodded, "We are" She agreed.

Roksana
"So, hmm, about that", I started. I had to ask, there was this one part of me which won't shut up until it got answers.

"Yeah, I'm sorry. I-I don't know what came over me" Nix said, looking at her hands, Kiwi had placed her head next to Roxanne.

Roksana
I petted Kiwi."I just need to now. Umm... ah dammit. Did you do it because you were sorry for me?"